Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Divorce
One of the biggest changes that took place in 2012 was my divorce. I was married for 14 years to Chris. It was very hard and still is hard.I do still care about him as he is the father of my son but I just feel out of love with him. Sadly I felt like I was never good enough and always felt rejected by him. I feel like I deserve a man that loves me completely and wants to show it.Everyday is a battle as I am completely starting over.I need to find a job and get in school to provide a future for myself.I no longer have someone doing that for me. Its scary but also exciting at the same time.I think the hardest part of the divorce was he basically got everything even primary custody of our 15 year old son. But that will not stop me from being in my sons life on a daily basis.Nothing will ever stop me from bineing his mother.
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Wow... I cant even imagine what you are going through. I hope for the best for you. It's going to be a new year and whole new you! Best of luck!
ReplyDeleteSwap bot - Jesslynne
Wow so much on your plate but a new beginning!
ReplyDeleteZefaniya- Follow me #9
Starting over is hard to do. I know it is hard not having your son with you, but just remember that he is only a few years away from making his own decisions. Make 2013 about you. Do what makes you happy. Go to school and do what you want to do. There should be a lot of opportunities where you live. Hang in there!
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Starting over is so hard to do but you can do it! I have faith in you and if you ever need a shoulder to lean on or someone to vent to, look me up. Sounds like you have good plans for a new beginning and good for you for making your son a huge part of your daily life.
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Rose (rosedzi from swapbot)
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ReplyDeleteYou will find the one who accept and love you completely.
Stay strong and 2013 will be a new beginning, a better one for you. :)
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Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI hope everything works itself out!
IzzyStardust from Swap-bot Follow Me #9
I wish the best for you!! I'm sure you're a strong woman, you will survive on your own and create a new life for yourself.
ReplyDeleteMy parents have been in the middle of divorce for the past two years. It's hard for my parents, but also for me and my brothers(I'm 18 and my brothers still under-aged). I think seeing their fights and arguments has changed me. I wish your son didn't have to see you and your ex-husband at your worst, it is not good for a child of any age. I'm so sorry to hear you lost the primary custody of your son, it must feel horrible!! I wish you will still have a great relationship with him!! Cheers, Jungpo follow me 9
I'm glad you have such a positive outlook in life. It's exciting that you're going back to school and picking a career. Hope you keep your spirits up even when things get tough.
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