I am trying to adjust to living for myself.After 14 years of always have to talk to my husband I dont have that anymore.I am so used to him to making all the most important decisions.Its hard to make any for myself. I feel lost and confused. I need to learn better time management and to learn to budget so I can be more productive and and manage my money better.

Divorce

One of the biggest changes that took place in 2012 was my divorce. I was married for 14 years to Chris. It was very hard and still is hard.I do still care about him as he is the father of my son but I just feel out of love with him. Sadly I felt like I was never good enough and always felt rejected by him. I feel like I deserve a man that loves me completely and wants to show it.Everyday is a battle as I am completely starting over.I need to find a job and get in school to provide a future for myself.I no longer have someone doing that for me. Its scary but also exciting at the same time.I think the hardest part of the divorce was he basically got everything even primary custody of our 15 year old son. But that will not stop me from being in my sons life on a daily basis.Nothing will ever stop me from bineing his mother.

Revamping

Well alot has happened since 2012. I am going to use this blog to look back at the good and bad and use it to move forward to make 2013 the best year possible.No more regrets or looking back I am just looking forward. Why live in the past?